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These days I feel like I'm not myself.

It's like I'm living but some part of my true soul fled away somewhere, somehow.

Recently, my life was related with a specific little group of people.

I really enjoy spending time with them at first, and later it's like I was a boring little stuff to them -

I was being isolated.

I don't want this kind of relationship.

Many times I have to keep things in my head, keep them inside and deeply hidden.

Sometimes I pretended to be somebody else to please them.

Everytime I do that, true pain is here inside.

I hurted myself litlle by little.

Lied to myself I'm happy.

Blind my heart, deafen my soul.

But, little by little I lost the control.

Slowly, unconcsiously my true face showed.

Now I'm looking back at myself -

Thinking of how far I've gone.

Today, no matter how steep,

I'll find my way up there once again.

Wait for me, my sleeping soul.

I'm on my way getting you back - returning you into my hole.

Oh gosh!!!

I watch a TV series this evening on Modern Nine tv channel.

It's a sitcom though. ('m not sure if I've spelled it correctly)

Today's act is a real cute - despite the uncomfort feelingbetween the old straight couple that I don't care about 'em.

Here we go: Bee ,a male singer from the Star contest,had done really well in his role.

He's soooooo cuteeeee! > <

It's really nice of him acting out like that.

It even made me want to scream in front of the box!!

Awww...Everyyaoi fangirls shouldn't have missed that scene.

He's aperfect UKE!!!!!

I hate when I can't control myself to do what I supposed to.

I always procrastinate - it's kind of a habit of mine.

I should realise that my future lies on my own hands.

I need to be prepared for everything that is coming up very soon.

I'm not prepared, so how could I?

What should I do to remind and warn myself to do what is right?

I don't want to disappointwhom I love. I really don't.

Hope the try-harder stuff will help solve this problem.